Thursday, August 26, 2010

Under the weather?

How is it possible that I am sick in 110 degree weather? Sickness gathers in cold temperatures, right? Well, I guess this bug decided to get me in the heat of summer. Yep. I'm at home (not that I have a job to keep me busy anyway) and I think I have the flu. ICK! It's not fun, but I'm learning to deal with it (I'm on day two and I'm not good at feeling ill - can you tell?).

So, feeling crappy (as I am) has sparked my thought process. Do you think it's possible that I was attacked by this illness because I am not myself? I am not the active, positive, upbeat, passionate person that I normally am. I need a drive. I need to have something to feel good about and be proud of. Unfortunately, I'm discouraged and that makes it very difficult to get myself motivated and out doing what I should be doing. This is not healthy. Could this be what lead to my being overcome with illness? Well this is certainly not good.

What will it take for me to focus my energy on cleaning, exercising, eating well, or even being out and about? I need to find it. I MUST find the trick. My sanity depends on it!

I think this slight depression/illness/lack of drive has contributed to my "slacker" attitude when it comes to blogging. I'm not afraid of being judged, I'm afraid of sounding like I've given up or I don't care. Maybe I'm afraid of it because there is a part of me that has given up. Well, that's not good enough for me. I need to focus. I need to get myself together. I need to feel better. I need to figure out how to do this.

For today, it is my duty to pull myself together. I need to just take some Tylenol - feel slightly better- and get something accomplished today. NO more wallowing in my self-pity/illness. I will focus on feeling better and getting something accomplished today. YES! That's the goal!

I look forward to posting good results tomorrow!
Happy Thursday!


Laurie ( said...

Sorry you are feeling under the weather. The people who read your blog (I can speak for myself, but I'm sure others would agree) love reading your blog no matter what you have to say. Having tough times only makes you human. Blog your frustrations away... maybe getting it out is half the battle!


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